already dressed in my pinafore with my hair all nicely tied up. Yesterday night was unproductive, things just didn't go the way I wanted them to. Found out some stuff that made me terribly disappointed. Disappointed in who? Or rather, what. Me included. But then Daddy gave me this jar of M&Ms which said "Hannah, you're our winner! -Mom and Dad" which makes me wanna cry and feel all mushy inside. This morning I woke up and I remembered seeing you in my dream. Don't know about what and why. Suddenly remembered today was my last photo taking in PL and got really excited. Then I thought about SAJC's open house tmrw with my JC kids and got even more excited. Then this thought came into my mind, as though someone was speaking to me "Why are you feeling so excited? You didn't even study hard yesterday, how can you feel so happy?" My mood changed and I felt annoyed for nothing, started frowning and sulking throughout my morning routines. Don't know how to be genuinely happy anymore, I wonder if this is even healthy.