Today after Chem tuition I realised that I haven't been buying anything from the GSS and I felt really upset. After all, it was the GSS and what have I been doing? Cooping myself at home and struggling with my studies. Felt like a loser, really. Then I started to ask God if this was all gna be worth it in the end. Will all these pay off? When I could be enjoying myself at town, shopping. But God reminded me that there are many more things more valuable than shopping and designer goods, and that's Family. So anyway, after tuition Mom and I headed over to my grandparents' house, yup the ones who aren't living with me. I don't go to their house that much, except on Chinese New Year. But once I entered the house I felt this warmth, this fuzzy feeling that definitely beats the happiness of trying on new clothes. Grandma dotes on me very much and so when I greeted her hello, she smiled from ear to ear. Grandpa got off the bed and asked me: "Have you been on a holiday??" and I just laughed. He is really cute. Grandma loves me so much that she has to give me food everytime I go to her house, even if we were just staying there for 20 minutes. She offered me ba zhang and a small banana. After eating the banana she gave me a packet of orange juice.

Then she said: "你的头发很长, waahhh, 很美很美" (your hair's so long, it's really pretty)

And at that moment I felt so loved because I hate my hair, it has alot of split ends and it curls in the most random directions. Before I left she gave me chocolate coins because she said no one eats them at home and she bought it for us, kids. They're in my fridge now :) On the way back, it just struck me. Why am I always chasing after worldly possessions when I already have more than enough? Yeah, I guess it's be good to have pretty clothes/bags/shoes, but hey, my family accepts me for who I am. And so does Daddy. There's no need to impress anyone. :)

So what did I get today? No Topshop clothes or Dorothy Perkins dresses, but 2 bazhangs made with love, a simple packet of orange juice, chocolates, a hug from Grandma, a pat on the back from Grandpa and smiles from them both.