Sometimes I wonder if being so numb about things is actually a good thing. Have you ever felt so numb that you don't feel sad when you're supposed to be, or angry? Maybe it's because the same old phase keeps happening again and you kind of expected things to be this way. Or maybe you can't be bothered. Well, actually you do but you know that nothing you say is going to help. It's funny how people tell me they need time. How much, exactly, is enough? Because I strongly believe that once you keep saying that, things start to fade. After being away for so long, it's never going to be the same anymore. It's lost. It's gone, just like that.

Another thing, everything happens for a reason. Something struck me one day, the reason why I lost my phone. That ONE time I put it aside in the toilet and it's that ONE time I forget about it. I guess it was God telling me to let go of things. Maybe I wasn't listening in the past, or my stubborn self chose to shut Him out. That's why He had to make me listen through the hard way- losing my phone. Not forgetting, its contents. I've learnt :)

Nevertheless, I am thankful for friends who keep me sane. You guys know who you are. I am thankful for my girls who are ever so joyful and I always feel so encouraged when I'm around them. Even after that one day after I lost my phone and they made me forget my worry. Being around them makes me so happy, I dare not think about next year without them. For the most awesome usual '93 gang. It's a pity we got so much closer and then Tai has to leave soon. I'm thankful for all the things we did together, the many inside jokes likes MOVE IT, LADY! Irreplaceable moments, really. Lastly, for my dearest CG, I miss you guys so much. Last Sunday was one of our very proper BS sessions in a long while. I love how we're 17 and 18 but we're still so playful about things. Learning together, walking together, growing together :)

Somehow listening to James Morrison gives me the i-wanna-get-outta-here feeling again. I always picture myself in another place and in a yellow cab. I'd be staring out of the window and watching the raindrops race each other down. The night sky's filled w plentiful of stars and city lights look like neverending neon lighted threads zooming by. I'd have my earplugs in with my favourite playlist playing. I reach my destination, order a cup of Caramel flavoured coffee and snuggle in my favourite couch in Starbucks- doodling, reading and writing. Alone time, I guess :)