If you don't know what I'm talking about please don't bother asking. Just don't.-Everything I thought was going well suddenly just crashed down infront of me. Just like that, at the snap of a finger. Everything I thought I had but others didn't just fell flat. Yknow, I have never felt that left out before. I really didn't feel like a sense of belonging arnd you guys. Thing is, I felt so out of place like literally. Just some moron there. For the first time, I didn't laugh as much as I did. Yknow this time, absence didn't make the heart grow fonder. It just made it worse, made a bigger gap. Yknow how hard it is to fake a smile everytime someone jokes and you don't really find it funny anymore. It was really different, trust me.And today's exactly the first week when you first told me. Yknow I had such high expectations about today, but I guess I went back on my word. I always told you high expectations meant higher disappointments. I just felt so confident about today, but I guess it shldn't be too much. I really tried, I did. It's just that your expressions make it so hard for me. I'm not blaming you, I never did. I just feel like digging up a big hole and hide in there until someone realises I'm gone and comes find me. I feel like running away, to a vvv far far far place.-
Someone told me not to be sad, cos Hannah's supposed to be a happy girl.I'm sorry but, Hannah's gone emo today. Just this once.Val where are you, I really need to talk to you :(Hey Yl, thanks for asking even though I didn't tell you. Lunch soon okay?& Merv, thanks for everything.I lift my eyes to the heavens, where does my help come from, My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth.Lord, help me- give me wisdom, strength and courage.Labels: why make promises you can't keep
